Today I had lunch and dinner with my dad and sister. We had sushi. Miso soup, edamame, a spicy veggie roll. A veritable feast. And then frozen yogurt. My God, it was hard to smile and look normal and eat all that food. But somehow I did. Now I'm ending the day at 785 calories. I don't want to call it a bust, because I do have an additional 100 liquid calories to be applied three times a week, and frozen yogurt is technically liquid, right? Hah, let's go with that. I'm thinking about adding in a special occasions clause to my plan, but that's just weak and lazy.
I did my morning calisthenics, and I think if I do another set, I'll let myself eat 5 strawberries for dinner. Or maybe just a cup of tea. I still can't get rid of this one song that put my head in a bad place. I just want to take up less space. I want to transcend need, become air and water and bones and nothing else.