Friday, April 8, 2011

Fuckitall.

Got home from school and binged on a cup of yellow rice (~200).  Tried to purge it up, but nothing came out.  Anyone else have trouble getting up bread products?  Any tips?  So SGD is a bust again today.  Fuckitall.  My personal rule with diets is that if I break them three days in a row, I have to start over.  I hope that doesn't happen.

Tonight includes dinner with A and her best friend, which will suck.  Oh don't get me wrong, I'll enjoy their company, but the food.  Meh.  I broke the plateau today, so I'm down one pound.  I doubt it after tonight.  I was planning on cooking this mushroom soup recipe I found (51 cals a cup), but instead I'll fast tomorrow.  Or maybe I can make it a liquid fast and fast on that soup.  I think that'd work.  But ugh.  I feel like shit right now.  Sorry to be so negative all the time, lovelies.  I'm so hard on myself, and I think it comes out way too much.

@Rowan - Writing as if you'd already binged sounds like a wonderful idea.  I might have to try that sometime.

@heiscertainlyworthit - I'm sorry if my post was triggering in any way.

3 comments:

  1. I've never purged, but I'm sure you already knew that drinking water before eating is important. Congrats on breaking the plateau! I think I'm currently at a plateau. Don't be too hard on yourself, you're doing amazing! <3

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  2. I could never ever purge - I've always found laxatives my way - though bad... =/

    bah - same here - today was a meh with food for me!

    I say fast on the soup - filling... yet low in cals!

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