Perhaps this is why I binged today. And on peanut butter and cereal, too. Ugh. There's no way that was coming up, so I didn't even bother. Instead, I put on a movie and power walked at a 30% incline through it. My treadmill says I burned 630, so if I walk my way through another movie later, I'll have worked off the binge. I need to do my daily crunches and shadowboxing, too. I will work this horrible food off. And for the love of God, NO MORE. I ate at 1, so my fast will last until 1 on Friday. I think I can hide the fact that I'm not eating for that long. If not... fuck it. Maybe then someone will look at me, and not through me.
I wanted to disappear... so why does it hurt so much?