Why am I doing this to myself anyway? I don't have an eating disorder. I have white-girl-wants-attention disorder. I got dumped on my ass, so I started acting crazy in retaliation. I wasn't good enough for him, but that's no reason to play this part. I am an actor in a role. An extraordinarily convincing role.
There is no need to purge my food. There is no need to restrict until I binge. There is no need for any of this. 300 calories is not too much for a meal.
I love you all, and you're so wonderfully supportive. I'm sorry for unleashing my giant volcano of crazy upon you. I'll still be around, reading and commenting where I have something to say. I'll probably still be writing. I just don't want my life to center around my disfunction. I can stop this before it's too late.