It's been a long, lonely, rainy Monday. Spring break started this week, so I don't even have school to keep me busy. It's strange, but as much as I need a break every time school is out, I don't really enjoy it. I would much rather be busy. I feel so unproductive. So worthless.
I wish either E or A were in town. I used to be a firm believer that there could not be love without trust. I was wrong. I don't trust either of them, but they're still my best friends. They've done nothing to me. They've done nothing to deserve me being this awful to them. I just hate everyone, okay? I even hate the people I love.
I can't sleep at night. I just lie awake thinking about everything I've done wrong, everything I will do wrong. I'm ugly, despicable, worthless, fat. I don't know what is so wrong with me. I really don't. But there's something.