Day one of SGD went well. I deviated from the food plan, but I was still well within the calorie range of the day. I ate 396 of my 400, excluding fruits and veggies so go me. Tomorrow will be a bit more difficult at 300 calories, but I feel like I can do it. The problem right now is E. She keeps making all these cupcakes, and it's all I can do to throw them away when she's not looking. T keeps giving me funny looks when I only pick at my lunch, too. But whatever. If they cared about me, they'd actually act like they give a damn. That's not fair. They do. I just push them away.
Truth be told, I don't want any friends. I don't want to be cared about. I want to quietly slip away to college, where no one will know my name. I can be the tragically thin girl with the pensive expression. For the longest time I've whole-heartedly believed that I will die at the rip old age of 22. Strange, no? I want to be alone when that happens. Completely, utterly alone.
Excuse my ramblings. I'm just really sad tonight.