Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Weak Body, Weak Mind

I am hungry.  I've had just under 300 calories today, with about 30 minutes of light calisthenics.  I have this great new ab and leg workout routine.  I just finished the leg portion, and I have that pleasant shaky feeling that comes after a workout done right.  I can't wait to see the results.  All the same, I miss strenuous cardio. Nothing produces results faster.  But alas.  My heart is weak.  My body is weak.  I am weak.

I had my last therapy session for about six weeks today.  That worries me a bit.  I love my therapist to death, and the sessions really ground me.  I can't come home while I'm at summer college, except for the weekends, and she doesn't work weekends.  I'll probably call her a few times while I'm there, but it won't be the same.

I want a Greek yogurt, but that would put me over 300.  For some reason, that feels like a very bad thing right now.  So I've got the food network on to satiate my cravings.  Iron Chef Japan is on, and the food looks delicious.  I don't know if it's helping or hurting, but for now I am enjoying myself.

Edit: Broke and ate a Skinny Cow ice cream bar.  Immediately purged until I tasted bile.  I still feel good.

1 comment:

  1. Oh sweetie you're not weak, it's hard when you feel hungry because it's so easy to convince yourself that one more bite won't change that and then once that empty hunger goes away you feel failure. The food network is totally how I avoid eating as well; I adore the cake challenges they're so incredible.