Monday, May 23, 2011

Bulging suitcases and nowhere to go.

It was a binge-y day today.  I was sad and lonely.  That's my biggest issue... I eat when I'm lonely.  I substitute food for friendship.  For caring.  For love.  I chew food up and spit it back out.  Symbolic, I know.  I steal their friendship, their hearts, and then I drop them and break my own heart in the process.  Even with spitting up a bit of my binge, the damage was still 1492 for the day.  Bad Alex.  Very very bad Alex.

Tomorrow will be a vegan day.  That way I can't binge on cereal and baked goods.  Just fruit, veggies, and this yummy navy bean soup I made today.  I have a feeling it will be even better tomorrow.  I'm re-reading Wasted by Marya Hornbacher for inspiration.  I'm just so ready for something new.  I'm going to summer college in a week.  I packed my bags already.  I want to move on.

On the bright side, my new computer came in today!  It's a gorgeous new Mac.  I need to name it.

1 comment:

  1. OOOH! You got a mac! I really want a mac.

    I'm sorry you're feeling lonely. Remember you have friends on blogger!